tempus fugit

sometimes i don't know what to do with myself.. there are so many people and things pulling me in so many direction. they all want my time and energy, and i feel like i have none left over for myself. there are things I want to do, and i feel guilty for doing them and not spending time or energy on other people who want it. i sometimes feel like i am being punished, although i know not for what. maybe this will subside in time as things in my life relax a little bit. i hope so. this week is so crazy. so many people!! my husband wants my by his side, my best friend wants to talk, the people i have started talking to online ALL want to talk to me at the same time, but that means everyone else is left out. i don't know who i should please.. i know it won't be me. it never is. i just can't leave everyone out in the cold so that i can have some time alone. i don't know how to tell everyone that i have to be me sometimes, and not a function of them. oh well. maybe after this week things will get better. here's hoping. by the by.. we are meeting with that couple tomorrow, and the next day i am getting my clit hood pierced (yay for me!) and i work all week.. and we might go to a swinger party in garland on sat.. so this week is out for anyone who reads this.. but check me later... i love you alll